What you've missed

So I know everyone wants to know all the details, but I'm still not sure why.

Here goes.

On Monday morning I was biking to work and was going to cross an intersection... well I thought it was safe to assume that cars stop at red but I guess I was wrong because the police report says I was hit by a car going 40, which makes this situation just a little serious. I remember thinking I was going to die and rolling up onto the windshield but when I hit the pavement things went black until I woke up to paramedics, an ambulance, 2 police cars, 2 fire trucks, and a few civilians. Yeah, that's when I think the panic set in. They wouldn't let me stand up and walk over to the ambulance (I know, right?) So I was loaded on a stretcher and rushed to Regions hospital where they cut all my clothes off and put an oxygen mask over my mouth. I couldn't really tell you, I was still in and out of consciousness and in and out of panic attacks. However, I did get my CT scans and X-Rays...

This is how it goes. I have the cuts and bruises you'd expect from being thrown 15 feet from a car. On top of that is a fractured skull and internal bleeding near my brain. It's pretty cash ha. I have been on pretty heavy duty watch every night, waking me up every hour to check all my vitals and check my nerve functions. On top of that, every 5 hours I have been stabbed to check my sodium rates (if the sodium level is low I am in danger for seizures so the whole head trauma thing has more effects than I knew). I had a second and third and fourth CT scan and the neuro surgeons said the bleeding in my head is stabilizing soooo I don't even have to have brain surgery so that's the good news.

The bad news is that it'll take up to 3 months for the fracture and bleeding to heal itself so for the next few months I can have recurring migraines, pressure, dizziness and nausea at random times without warning or explanation.I have four staples holding the back of my head together near the fracture and the internal bleeding there especially caused that part of my brain to swell. It is the center of the brain dedicated to my equilibrium which explains why I am so dizzy and hence nautious, not keeping meals down until today at last.

The most ironic part? I was coming down with something Sunday until my dad found bad plumbing and resulting mold problems in our basement. I apparently was the most sensitive to that. Monday morning he was telling me about it and suggesting I slept somewhere else for a couple nights...Funny that his wish was granted, eh?I was told if I went 12 hours without puking I could be discharged. This is that time. So wish me luck.

I think I covered it all but feel free to make comments or ask questions.I have definitely felt the love. I love and appreciate each and every one of you :)

The end.

Am I crazy?

Ok, so remember how I said I wasn't even feeling a slump? I didn't count today into that mess... Maybe it's that I am getting into one of those funks I have, and maybe I'm just being paranoid, but maybe its a reality that they are treating me differently. And they are my best friends, so I am just a little lost on that fact. I want my love to come home already, is she the only one who hasn't lost her patience with me? I need her back, no foreign city can steal her this time.

So I lived in a different home for the last week. Hence why I am pretty much crazy deprived of sleep. Three weeks left of work. HOORAH. I guess that's just about it to say.

I just feel ugh.

Thank Goodness

T.G.I.F.

It pretty much loses its meaning when you lose your weekend... Ready to take a day off of work.

Random musings on a Monday night

There are officially 5 weeks left until I move back to Mankato and forget about this place. That might be exactly what I need.

Lately I have been in a slump, but I am surprised that I am not more so... I feel as if I am thinking I should be a lot more depressed and stressed than is actually a reality, and that is pretty cool shit. I think I am generally content with my life right now. With multiple jobs you don't exactly have a lot of time to be bored, but in the few moments I spend with the couple friends I still hold close I am enjoying myself thoroughly this summer.

And that's that. Life is conventional right now. I go to work, go for a walk, perhaps see someone, eat dinner, and chill out until I fall asleep. This must be what it feels like to grow up. Now I wonder what adults actually have to say in their blogs...

I'll tell you one thing, I am generally excited to start school again. And my perspective has so changed on that subject! Before I would've told you I was just pumped to go back and see my friends. But now... I am excited to learn, and to have a break, and to be on my own again just cruisin... Not to say I don't love my home, just to say I feel guilty living with my parents, is that a sad thing? I feel like I should be spreading my wings, but I am glad I can actually live and save. I need to live and save.

Spain will be splendid.
Thank you very much.

Things I Want to Do Before I Die

• Skydive
• Learn Sign Language
• Write a Book
• Pierce my Belly Button
• Go on a Blind Date
• Swim with Dolphins
• Patent Something or Anything...
• Visit Ireland
• Have Sex on an Elevator
• Learn how to Play Cello
• Appear on Television
• Have Dinner with Royalty
• See a Broadway Show
• See the Wall of China
• See the Pyramids
• Scuba Dive
• Party with a Celebrity
• Get a (second) tattoo
• Paint something magnificent
• Make a difference
• Give my mom a dozen roses
• Send a message in a bottle
• Make a layer cake
• Experience Weightlessness
• Drive the Autobahn
• Make love underwater
• Figure out how to create my family tree
• Donate enough to put my name on something
• Go up in a real hot air balloon!

Happy B-Day America!

Today always makes me feel kinda guilty... I celebrate, but am not proud of, the country. America definitely is beautiful and I hold so much value to the little freedom I have, but have never been by any means patriotic enough to buy the flag on a t-shirt or give the thumbs up to Mr. George W. can you blame me?

It was the worst right after the tragedy of our Twin Towers... It was a very sad event but the patriotism it inspired for the following five years made me a little sick. I don't think that all of this should have come out of that piece of terrorism, and our responses have left us barely able to afford gas, laying off every employee, and leaving little hope for our college graduates. It makes me afraid, not proud. So when our country's day rolls around I have fun with the BBQs and Fireworks but am left with these dwelling worries.

God Bless the U.S.A.




On a lighter note, with the weekend off I am heading to Mankato for the 4th to celebrate with some loves :) Expect some stories.

"He had to punish us somehow, right?"

It's July. Isn't that fabulous?

Ok, so do you care to know who I am? I am pretty much run of the mill I s'pose. You can determine that. I have gone through my share of things to learn but I really like who I have become because of all of it. Now, I am spending a summer hanging out with good friends, swamped with working two jobs and taking 5 credits. I have always overworked myself.

Today one of the children at work named Connor was talking to me about how cool it would be to run 200 mph and not get tired. I said it would be difficult to run like that infinitely without being tired or getting hurt... This is when he explained to me that the reason for all of this was because Adam and Eve sinned. Ha.

Connor is 5. So are the other 25 kids I watch. I wanna record each and every thing they say. Seriously.